News About Music Video Shows Store Gallery Lyrics Blog Contact

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Sleepwalker's Bed: Innocence

As an Evangelical, the virtue I coveted most was Innocence. Innocence wasn't just a characteristic of children and the naive — it was a state to which we aspired, like confidence, or Nirvana. The Innocent had greater faith. Their prayers were answered. They were simpler to love. The Innocent were somehow more complete than the rest of us, their personalities more pure.

Losing your Innocence, particularly as a woman, was a tragedy. To ask questions meant you were cynical. To have experience meant you were broken. Once faith no longer came easy, the only hope you had for living the life God intended for you was to pray earnestly for restoration of a child-like heart.

I wrote "Innocence Lost" while grappling with what it meant to be Innocent. Life happened and I lost my ability to believe without questioning. The community pitied my brokenness, and for a while it was easy to blame myself for becoming less-than instead of removing myself from the people who thought less of me.

Looking back, I think our cult of Innocence stemmed from a fear of the Question.

Paradox was uncomfortable. We protected ourselves from the uncertainty of our doubts by idolizing those who had none. We pitied the doubters so we could forget that we ourselves were just like them.

While worshiping the god of Innocence, I bitterly lamented how experience had made me weak and kept me from being my "truest, purest self." While writing this song, I started to see experience as something that made me stronger and in fact made my life richer.

Our experiences are, in fact, what makes us who we are.

Your love is behind me now
This is what I've bought
A second chance, but with the strength
Of innocence lost


Unknown said...

michael kors handbags
ray ban sunglasses
coach outlet store online
jordan 6
ugg boots store
michael kors outlet
burberry outlet
louis vuitton outlet
ugg boots for women
christian louboutin shoes
michael kors handbags
michael kors outlet
Ugg Boots Outlet Clearance,Cheap Uggs On Sale Discount For Women
Mont Blanc
michael kors outlet clearance
coach outlet
coach outlet
coach outlet
coach factory outlet
michael kors
louis vuitton outlet
Canada Goose Outlet,Canada Goose Outlet Online,Canada Goose Clearance
canada goose outlet,canada goose jackets,canada goose online,canada goose sale
louis vuitton
canada goose outlet usa
nike outlet,nike shoes,nike store,nike air max,nike free run,air max,nike free,nike blazers
cheap jordans
coach factory outlet
timberland boots
tory burch outlet
ugg boots clearance
michael kors bag
michael kors handbags
canada goose jackets
michael kors outlet

chenlili said...

rolex watches for sale
air jordan 4
cheap oakleys
ugg boots
polo shirts
michael kors outlet online
michael kors outlet clearance
tod's shoes
adidas superstar trainers
cheap basketball shoes
ugg boots on sale
true religion sale
north face jackets
louis vuitton handbags
kevin durant shoes 7
moncler coats
toms shoes
coach factory outlet
coach outlet store online clearances
kate spade handbags
coach factory outlet
ralph lauren
michael kors handbags
concord 11
concords 11
coach outlet store online clearances
moncler coat
cheap rolex watches
ugg boots
louis vuitton outlet stores
fitflop shoes
moncler pas cher
uggs canada
ugg boots
oklahoma city thunder jerseys
gucci outlet

Unknown said...

gucci bags
gucci handbags outlet
ralph lauren outlet
michael kors outlet online
louboutin outlet
adidas nmd r1
sac longchamp
ralph lauren uk
adidas superstars
nike air max

Unknown said...

2018130 leilei3915
canada goose uk
ugg boots outlet
ugg outlet online
snapbacks wholesale
coach outlet store online
michael kors outlet
fred perry polo shirts
michael kors outlet
fred perry clothing
michael kors outlet clearance

Cara Mengatasi Asam Lambung said...

This information is very useful. thank you for sharing. and I will also share information about health through the website

Cara Menyembuhkan Sakit Maag
Cara Menghilangkan Bruntusan
Obat Luka Bernanah
Pengobatan Alami Keputihan
Obat sariawan
Walatra Gamat Emas Kapsul

noor said...

ارخص شركة شحن عفش

نقل عفش من جدة الى مكة نقل عفش من جدة الى مكة
شركة نقل عفش من جدة الى الامارات نقل عفش من جدة الى الامارات
افضل شركة نقل عفش من جدة الى الرياض نقل عفش من جدة الى الرياض
شركة نقل عفش من جدة الى الدمام نقل عفش من جدة الى الدمام
شركة نقل عفش من المدينة المنورة الى مكة نقل عفش من المدينة المنورة الى مكة